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Week 45 (2025) – Dark Times – Getting Busier – Selfie with Ruben Albarran
I’m writing on a Friday. I don’t write here on Fridays. I’ll publish it on Monday. It’s been a weird couple of days. Lonely days. It’s been a weird week. Time change. I fucking hate the time change. Winter approaches. The sun rises earlier, and it gets dark by 5 pm. Stop changing time. The…
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Week 44 (2025) – Halloween 2025 A Flash That Flashes – Low Season to End the Year – First Paycheck… and It’s Gone
First Monday of the month. I paid rent. It makes me sad. It should make me happy. I have shelter for another month… but it just gives me big sad. Money comes, money goes. I got my first paycheck from my new job managing social media for two restaurants… and it’s gone. Rent and the…
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Week 34 (2025) – End of Bad August and Bizarre Dreams – Fantasy Football Season Draft – Forastero and New Revu
I had the craziest of dreams. Too bizarre to even process. It had LAX, but they were apartments, and also a weird intergalactic brothel where you could switch bodies with other beings. And like always in my dreams. Very large bathrooms with a ton of showers. A lot of rooms with showers. It’s always in…
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Week 28 (2025) – Changed Website and New About Me – San Diego Date Day – Tijuana Adventure Newsletters
I changed my website. I changed my attitude. How does it look? Let me know. The start of July was slow. Well… it started with a great tour that paid me double, but then it slowed down. It was my girlfriend’s birthday, and I did nothing but make sure she was happy. And then I…
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Week 26 (2025) – Mom’s Birthday/Girlfriend’s Birthday – Halfway Through the Year – Ensenada Adventure Tours Text
It doesn’t feel like a Tuesday. It doesn’t feel like July already. It’s halfway through the year. It’s my girlfriend’s birthday. It will be our 2 year anniversary soon. Wild. She’s doing a baby shower style birthday (the day after) for her and her friends. They going to drink pink things and paint pink things.…
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Week 2 (2025) – Of Sadness and Love -Ensenada Adventure Business Venture
I feel empty. Sort of incomplete. Like I lost a limb. An extension of myself. My girlfriend broke up with me. Or I broke up with her. I asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend for 2025. Not beyond that. Another year. The first one went fast. I love being with her. She…
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June 2023: Most Insane Bachelor Party and More Tours – Seafood Cover Story – Tripping Balls at the Baseball Stadium
I’ve never done mushrooms in a stadium before. I love going to Toros. Going on shrooms… that’s something else. Like I said in my previous blog, life is going into insanity. It’s only been three weeks since I turned 37 and every weekend has been some crazy great shit. So great… that I decided I’m…
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New Year, New Job (I Hope) – Houston for the Holidays – Chase money, Not Love
I’m dipping into what little savings I have. I don’t like it. Broke as fuck. But I’ll be alright. Heartbroken as hell. But I’ll be alright. It’s Christmas time. December disappeared like I said it would. The first week didn’t count. I was sick the whole time and the weather was shit. The second week…
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Wallow in Sadness – Donatella Died, She Left – That’s Life, Sinatra Way
I said life was like Sinatra. Life continues the Sinatra way. This time I’m down. I’ve done nothing for the past five days. Unless you count playing Overwatch 2 for endless hours and getting drunk doing something. Then… I’ve been doing a lot. Nothing productive. I took my car to the mechanic. He says she’s…
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August of Heat, Love, and Work – Tours and Shoots – YouTube Monetization, Subscribe!
My girlfriend broke up with me on Sunday via text. She said she didn’t want to see me anymore… And then she showed up Monday morning in my apartment. I was in the bathroom when I got her text message if I was up. I said I was. She said she was outside… She tries…
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Shooting from the Air, Shooting from the Ground – Moody Monday – Babe + Sunset + Studio Lights
Dark have been my dreams of late. Not really dark. Weird. Weird dreams. Weird days. This last dream involved my friend Mora and Pablo. Not sure why those two were there. But they were. And in that dream, we were trekking a snowy mountainside that had ocean waves crashing on the side. A mix of…
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Saraby and Abril – Prints and Sexy Shoots – Tijuana Beer Tours 2021
My therapist says that I am doing better. I guess I only told her all the good shit that has been happening and skipped all the horrible shit. Horrible shit. I’ve spent two days sober this whole year. And not completely sober. I mean just no alcohol. Those nights, I couldn’t sleep and had suicidal…
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Super Bowl Shit – Steady Cover Photo Life – Prints Are Expensive As F
Well… That Super Bowl game was shit. I wanted the Bills to win it since I got Diggs as my wide receiver and I was loving what I saw from the team. I never really liked the Bills or their fans, but I was digging this team. And my cousin Dennis is a huge fan…
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No Niche Photography – Drone, Journalism, Nalgas, Food & Drinks, Landscapes, Fantasies, Etc. – Best Thing I’ve Ever Written
I don’t know what to do with my day. I don’t know what to do with my life. I say that a lot. This girl that I like and she likes me back always says the same “start writing.” I don’t know what to write anymore. I’m not a writer. I just have stories to…
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2 Years of Afterlife – Where Am I Headed? – All Sorts of Photoshoots
I don’t know where I’m headed, but I’m going straight there. It’s my niece’s birthday tomorrow. It’s been exactly two years since my mom died. It feels like it was forever ago. Maybe it was because of the non-existent 2020. The eternal bond of mother and child broke. My mom and I had a strong…
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Whole Lot of Nothing and Everything – Cover Picture Out Today (Cover Love Story Out Soon) – NFL Fantasy Güiching Auer
I sold one book all of November. And it wasn’t even my new book, it was the Tijuana Adventure book. You can buy that HERE. Or my new book, here! The Amazon rating for my books is the lowest it has ever been. Neither of them are on the top #100 of their category. How…
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Drone Adventures – Flying is my New Favorite Thing – NFL Fantasía Semana #8
I want to fly!!! That’s all I want to do. My friend Danny, a guy I toured a few years ago, lent me his DJI Mavic Mini. A nifty little drone that weighs 249 grams, making it legal to fly in most places in the United States. In Mexico, drone laws are a bit confusing…
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The Final Point, Astro Photos in La Baja – Five-Star Reviews on Paparazzi Daze – Not Many Book Sales…
I applied for a job this morning. I am not certain if it’s for me, but it might be. A few people ask me to do a podcast. It’s a podcast related type of job. If I get it, it will be a new life. It’s a serious job. And one that would benefit my…
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Donatella Died, Valle de Guadalupe Trip – Sex Change – “Paparazzi Daze” Book 63.7% Done
The longer I go without writing, the harder it gets to get back to it. It has happened to me before. It is happening to me again. You forget just how you do it. How do I just sit here and word vomit so much? How did I write a book about Tijuana in a…
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It’s Mom’s Birthday and 2020 Still Sucks – More Covers, More Word Vomit – Unboxing a Case of Mystery Beer
It’s my mom’s birthday. She would’ve been 63. And she would have been hating this year. This year fucking sucks. She would have enjoyed yesterday though. Yesterday was a good day. And if she was around, she would be with us. I went with my brother, his wife, and his kids to pick strawberries in…
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32 Weeks, 5 Days: It Got Worse, But I am Better – Dwelling on the Past and Moving On – Slow Down September, Plus NFL and more Work!
32 Weeks, 5 Days. Welp. That was short-lived. And painful. It still sucks to wake up. It’s the worst part of the day. I just yell at my cats and they don’t come. So I just stay there feeling like shit. Today… I woke up to a message from my ex. My tiny ex from…
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21 Weeks, 1 Day: Nelson Bar Guitar – Past Thinking, Sleeping, Drinking, and Starcraft II – Life Got Dull
21 Weeks, 1 Day. I haven’t written anything since I got back. I haven’t done much since I got back… I thought I was coming back to a mountain of work. I was worried about my car registration. Not only was it lost and suspended, but it also needed a renewal. I crossed the border…
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14 Weeks, 2 Days: Post 500! – Fantasy Girls (Palm Giraffe) – So Much Work for May – Querétaro and Mexico City Travel Plans (Unclear!)
14 Weeks, 2 Days. Waking up still sucks. I don’t think I’ve had a decent night sleep all of 2019. I usually wake up at 3 or 4 a.m., drink some water, then I try to go back to bed. And. I never do. I just lay there. My brain constantly attacking me with depressive…
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2019 Plans – Last Year in Review 5/10, Just like my Fantasy Score – Out of Blog Space
The year ended 5/10. As in, it was good, it was bad, it was even, and so forth. Thus is the rollercoaster of life. And at the end. 5/10. Just like my final spot in Fantasy Football. 5/10. Better than last. So… still pretty good. The year also ended with one cover picture (from last…
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Early December: NFL Fantasy Playoffs (en Español) – Back to Work – Back to Finding a Car to Buy
I have to pull the trigger soon. Just be brave. And do it… Pull the effing trigger. And buy a car. It’s been around a year that I’ve been looking at cars. At some point, I almost got a 90s Bronco for free. That didn’t happen. Then there was some talk of a free Honda…
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