37 Weeks, 3 Days.
I’ve been having really weird days since last week…
Nothing exciting. Nothing really that odd. I just don’t feel like myself and then suddenly the day disappears.
My schedule got all fucky for working late at night and waking up late in the morning. I rarely realize what day it is unless there is NFL.
And NFL died quickly on Sunday, so I forgot today was Tuesday. A week of October already went by. And it just went by.
Nothing.
Odd days.
Odd dreams.
A lot of eating and sleeping.
As if I were sick.
But I am not.
Tomorrow dominates my mind.
I’m nervous about tomorrow.
Tomorrow, I have my Global Entry interview.
Nowhere throughout the process did it say that I needed a passport booklet to apply. Even when providing proof it asks for a passport and I stubbornly wrote my passport card though letters weren’t approved. I emailed them about this and the generic answer didn’t help.
On top of that, my SENTRI is still approved and out there, just never activated. And this is from years ago. Turns out, and I learned that today, that a fucker in the house where my brother rents was stealing the mail. Anything that seemed valuable… And that’s probably where my SENTRI went.
Also, I should register my car.
It’s a messy situation that I hope to fix. I tried to reschedule for a later date, but the soonest was going to be next year… so I rather try to risk and fix all of it now than wait.
Worst case Ontario, I get denied and I have to reapply (unless it’s forever).
Ok case scenario, they tell me that I need to reschedule.
Good case scenario, they tell me to reschedule for my Global Entry, they fix my SENTRI situation and approve my car.
The best-case scenario, they give me my Global Entry.
That’s tomorrow. Super early in the morning. In Otay Mesa.
So I have to drive across at some point. Hoping the line is not bad.
And tomorrow I’m also a delivery boy.
And then I have a photography gig or two to resolve.
Speaking of which…
I had great Halloween photoshoots. Which were really tough to do. And… some were dark and blurry. I heard complaints about it. I got pissy. I defended myself the wrong way…
Thus… I think I lost one of my gigs.
It wasn’t working very well either though… I took tons of pics, barely got used, still got paid, but no real satisfaction.
Work has been feeling tiring.
And never-ending.
Repetitive.
I’m a bit burnt out. But there’s nothing better for me right. Or anything I rather do.
So I must keep doing it.
Again, I can’t complain and yet I still do… I have to work on the beer cover soon. I get to take pictures of beer and drink beer. That doesn’t sound too bad.
All I worry is about tomorrow.
All I want is my SENTRI.
It feels more important than graduating from college. This document means so much more to me than my college degree. At least for my border crossing lifestyle.
Life is funny and shitty.
Mostly shitty.
The other thing that is always on my mind is the NFL.
And now I’m not only obsessed with my fantasy team… I am into gambling…
Before I get into rambling about that (and in Spanish)… already posting late…
Pictures.
Yet another cover picture!
And another comes out tomorrow!
This one is okay. I mean… I really like it. But not my favorite… It’s not easy to make “Book Clubs” very interesting. Job done though!
This is one of the pictures from the photo dump that goes nowhere:
Classic San Diego shot.
Scary homeless dude was nearby… but if anything, I could defend myself with my tripod. Or so I told myself…
That was Friday night. That was my Friday night. Take pictures of scary people, then took a bunch of night shots since I was already out and about. Got cool ones, but the moon ruined the possibility of a cool Milky Way shot.
The Milky Way season is basically over. I never got a cool shot. This year was a waste for that…
Saturday night I seriously did NOTHING but wait for NLF.
That’s when I thought about gambling. Paid a $10 parlay with a chance to win $1,500.
I woke up like a kid on X-mas morning WAY too early to watch NFL because I was convinced I was going to win the parlay. Which also fucked up my sleeping schedule even more and that’s why I feel all fucky.
I got 6 out of 8 right and the Sunday morning rush was on full power. Adrenaline like no other watching every game.
It felt so close…
And my mistakes were the Raiders went over the score (BARELY!)
And the Pats went under their score (BARELY!).
So I was two dick hairs away from turning $10 to $1,500.
And that kids…
Is how casinos hook you into gambling forever.
And as a shitty writer with not much to lose in life, throwing away $10 for that rush of making $1,500 is worth it. I waste so much time reading stats and watching NFL shit that I should be able to capitalize on this besides winning on my NFL fantasy league and writing about it…
Which btw…
Semana #5 de NFL en Español Liga Baquetons Forever:
El domingo fue demasiado corto y disparejo. Después de la primera ronda de juegos de las 10 a.m. (de mi tiempo) ya se había acabado. Y yo estaba mas obsesionado con mi parlay de $10 que con el fantasy. Resúmen corto y no muy interesante por que estoy cansado y mañana tengo un día importante.
Tijuana Hookers 140. 40 vs Don Bacardi’s Team
Que puedo decir? Tengo a McCaffrey. No se necesita mucho mas. Boyd se tardo muchisisimo en anotar que me tenía bien nervioso en que no solo me iba arruinar mi fantasy, me iba arruinar mi apuesta. Cumplió en garbage time. Mike Evans no hizo nada y mis TEs no fueron los de siempre, pero del otro lado, Don Bacardi no hizo mucho. Sufrió junto la defensa de sus vaqueritas que lo dejaron con un punto. La unica vaquera que hizo buenos puntos lo dejo en la banca (a Gallup) y Cook de los Vikings esta imparable, pero Julio Jones no se apareció. Don Bacardi … FONDO! … pero de la tabla junto Queretaro FC (y se ven la siguiente semana).
Queretaro FC 90.32 vs Jaiba Brava 179.12
Kirby regreso a las de siempre y no llego ni a los cien después de una semana donde parecía que ya no se iba a dejar. No hizo ni un cambio y dejo a Marcus Mariota contra la gran defensa de los Bills y en la lluvia mojado como un perro. Y mojado como perro se quedo después de una Jaibita más que brava. Sus puntos derivaron de el Jueves con QB1 Wilson y la defensa de los Eagles con 35 puntos vs los Jets. Robinson y Fournette también hicieron mucho mas de lo esperado y con eso la Jaiba se pone la corona de super líder.
Queretaro Thunders 114.44 vs 129.94 CDMX Ocelopilli
Aunque el resultado parece que estuvo cerca el juego, no fue así. Esto se definió tarde en Domingo en el partido de los Chargers vs Broncos donde los Thunders no pudieron sumar y en el de los Cowboys donde Amari Cooper fue de lo mejor. Los RBs de Thunders le dieron mucho menos de lo prometido, pero al Mariobot su promesa QB1 Mahomes le fue de lo peor que le ha ido en años. Fue lo suficiente para ganarle a unos Thunders que tenían una última esperanza con su TE estrella Jorge Kittle, pero el sueño fue arruinado por un pateador que fallo, fallo, y lo bloquearon.
The Lion King 134.36 vs 89.94 Guarren Luna
Hablando de QBs que fallan, Wentz y Jackson no hicieron mucho y de ahí en fuera, casi nadie hizo mucho. Lion King se salvó que los Vikings por fin decidieron aventar un poquito el balón y el Primos le mando pase tras pase a Thielen ya que Diggs esta enojado con su equipo. También el Flex RB Lindsay fue sorpresa que ha sido buen sleeper en la liga. Del otro lado, Guarren Luna sufrió lesiones y bajo rendimiento por todos lados. No pudo hacer nada para poder darle la vuelta.
The Mongooses 108.58 vs 131.90 MyBeerAndMe
Simbos contra su cuñado y Simbos se deja ganar con el jugador con el mas alto puntaje desde el 2017 en la banca. De pilón, le regalo a Ekeler por Conner confiando en que ya no se iba a usar mucho a Ekeler pero hizo el doble de el que tiro. Los Giants no lo ayudaron. Nada lo ayudo. El BeerAndMe tuvo suerte con un Matt Ryan que pierde por una defensa horrenda, pero se puso aventar balones izquierda y derecha. El OBJ no hizo nada, pero Godwin se llevo todos los puntos que eran para Evans (de nuevo) y con eso firma su victoria y se posiciona en medio de la tabla con el otro vato de su generación.
Y finalmente.
SanchezStyle 192.84 vs 113.94 Miami DL
Pelón, espero estes ganando en tus otras ligas por que en esta no solo vas perdiendo, te acaban de dar una violación… Quién necesita a Barkley cuando tienes a Aaron Jones que revienta, Watson que tuvo su mejor juego y un DJ Chark tudutudutudu el target favorito de Minshew. El pelón no jugo mal, pero no jugo bien y aunqué lo hubiera hecho… 192.84 puntos…
Buenos partidos la siguiente semana… y lo más importante… otra chanza de ganarme $1,500 de una apuesta de $10.
There you have it.
And through all that, I didn’t mention my mom. I don’t know what phase I’m in now. It’s definitely a very weird one. It’s neither sad and obviously not happy. I’ve gone through so many phases that I don’t know what now. I’ve been sleeping weird. Been having weird days. And she pops in my head at very random moments that I’m not sure what to think anymore.
It’s still stupid that she’s gone.
Life is so pointless that I have nothing but NFL. Otherwise… everything is so dull.
The days are weird. It gets dark sooner. I’m nervous about tomorrow…
I don’t feel the comfort of things going to be alright anymore.
Matingas 