She packed her things to leave. She has a lot of things in my place.

She didn’t leave. But was about to. And like always. It was my fault. It was I who yelled to get out of my apartment.

Telling the story and reasoning about it here wouldn’t make sense. You would only hear my version and not hers. And of course the silly fight still doesn’t make sense in my head and if we talk about it again we just bump heads and end up in the same place.

And it’s such a stupid thing.

It’s similar to what happened in my Tijuana Adventure book with my first Tijuana girlfriend. Buy it here.

That relationship was shit though. This one is great.

But I’m selfish.

I’m always so fucking selfish.

I want her to mold to me. And in my mind I leeway myself to her.

It’s been 8 months and a few weeks. My birthday is coming up. Her birthday is coming up. Then it would be our anniversary. I’ve never lasted with a girlfriend enough to have an anniversary. “I thought we would make it a year,” she said. Trust me. Same here.

But it’s not about making it last is it? Or is it?

It’s about enjoying each other. And I enjoy her. She enjoys me. It should be that easy.

But relationships are way more complicated than that.

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My future seems foggy. My relationship the same. My finances are good to great.

This shit is usually the opposite.

Donatella is gone. I made good money by getting rid of her. Bye Donatella!

Two magazines paid me. There has been a bunch of tours. Not that many photoshoots.

My “celebrity” status or influencer or whatever you want to call me is growing a shit ton. A stupid video I did on TikTok has over 200k views. I forgot to do a call to action. It’s still a shit ton of views and it gives other videos more views.

People that know me and I have my number text me my own videos. Like “OMG I saw you on TikTok.” And yes. I posted it. I know it’s there.

I get recognized in a lot of places. Or if not recognized, I get stared at a lot. Maybe I’m just paranoid. Maybe I have a booger on my nose. I like to tell myself is because I’m handsome. But age shows. I’m getting old. I had a good run and will continue to have a good run. My twenties were a long time ago and my thirties start to fade.

Oh hi forties.

Stay away for longer. It’s still two years from now. 40-year-old blogger. Been doing this shit for over a decade.

Thanks for reading those who do. You can give me money.

Money is for beer and food. Beer is for writing. Food is for content. If you like my content and want to keep it as honest as it’s always been, then donate. For a long time I thought about how easily I would sell myself at the first chance given. I regret those thoughts. I’m making money being myself and that’s much better. I got paid for doing videos the way I like it. Giving my brutal honest opinion of the things as I see it. It’s my fucking opinion. You don’t have to take it so seriously.

After all. I’m a man who doesn’t like avocado. Why would you trust someone that doesn’t like something that everyone else likes?

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Already a week into May.

10 days till my birthday.

I always get weird around my birthday. And now it’s even weirder.

I got work to do. I tried nuking the TijuanaAdventure page to start anew and make it look more like a clothing store. I regretted it. My tours get popular through social media and I need a landing page. It will be back to looking more like a tour page with merch on the side.

I’ve been saying I’m going to retire from doing tours soon, but I don’t. They get more popular everyday. I posted a short video of quick tour I did with an older writer who came to pick up his granddaughter. It has been my most viral video on Instagram. It gave me over 1,000 followers in a week. The video has close to 100k views.

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People like my videos. I’ve never liked doing video. It’s time consuming and tedious. But it’s the future and it’s what it pays.

People like my content. I’ve never trusted myself with my content. Never happy in front of the camera. To this day, hearing my voice in the videos makes me cringe. I’m still not comfortable. But I’m a million times better than how I was years ago.

People don’t believe me when I say I’m shy. It’s been a shit ton of work to not be shy. I was the shyest kid ever. My face would turn completely red and my eyes would water if the girl I had a crush would look at me. Or if the teacher asked me to get in front of class. Or when I got angry.

I still do.

It still happens.

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We made plans to go to Seattle. That was the litmus test in the relationship in my mind. The other longest relationship I had that almost lasted a year turned sour after traveling together. The idea was to travel together and I realized then that we didn’t work that well for that.

And my idea is to travel forever. Perhaps it is also to be single forever.

Or perhaps we should try to go to Seattle together. It sounds like pressure when I put it like that. But when we go out and explore places in Tijuana we do great. I love our dates.

We’ll see what she says.

We’ll see if I even publish everything I’m writing.

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There is work to do in May. Finish the beer guide. Do all the merch I’ve been talking about. Now I have some funds to get it going. I don’t need a real job as of now. Part time job would be nice. I still have time in my days to work more.

I have emails to respond. One more tour in May next week. More people are asking for tours. Two bachelor party tours in July. I’m not sure if I’ll be doing tours by then. One of the clients wants to videochat about it. I hope it can just be an email. The other is waiting my reply.

I have stories to write. There is one that I know I can finish quickly. More money. More work. More gigs. More merch.

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This blog needs a picture. But I’ve been doing more videos lately. I also got a cover in the San Diego Reader and that’s been a while.

Thank you, Dra Pazos for letting me take your picture and the Hospital de Salud Mental in Tijuana. She told me if I need it, I am welcome any time. And I just might. I haven’t been to therapy in over seven months and I can tell. That’s what happens when you don’t pay your therapist. She drops you as a client. (I’m joking, I did pay her, but I often complained about how broke I was to pay her).

3 covers so far this year. It used to be way more. 2 more covers coming up in May. 1 cover that I wrote coming June. I’ll be writing some more. I’ll be taking more pictures.

I should play guitar. Work out. Keep on writing. I wrote “WTL” on my whiteboard but I have no memory of what I meant by it. I have more video ideas. Then I have more work to do. In my relationship. In life. And that goes on.

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